Thursday, January 28, 2010

Fall n fall n fall everyday

B... this video is for you. I know this is only a simple video but i hope you will enjoy it. Thanks for the moments that we had. I fall and fall and fall in love with you everyday darl. Thanks for always be by my side through good and bad times. Thanks for always support me and believe in me.

Baby... If i could, i want to be by your side for the whole of your life. To be with you in every breathe that you breath. I am sorry baby, sorry for do not have enough strength while i am with you. I know sometimes i push you away from me. It is not because i do not love you, but because of i love you so much. I became egoist with myself. I start to hate crying. I hate tears. Finally, i hurt you badly with my behavior. I am sorry baby, and i really really sorry about it. 

But on top of that, i want you to know that i really love you.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Falling slowly

I do not how the movie actually, i just got this link from baby. He gave me this link. As if this is the melody of his heart. He always touch  me. Touch me with his heart, with his love. I really want to say to the world that he is the person that i need for the whole of my life. But i do not have any strength to say it out loud. Cause i really afraid that i might be loosing him may be in just a second.

When i understand the fragility of life, i start to more appreciate what i have in life. I can not list it here, cause it just to much. And i start to wondering, why must i look at the one thing i have lost before too long? While i have a lot and lot of things that i should appreciate and enjoy it while i still have it.

Needs and wants. Two different things in life. Usually, we always wants something based on what we crave for without knowing whether that is what we really need. And if we can have something that we want but actually we do not it so finally it is wasting. So i can say that, when we choose the person that we want no to the person that we really need in life so at the end it only just wasting our time.

Back to the story, at the moment i can say that who will be the person that i want and need for. I am happy with baby right now. I felt blessed when i am with him. The way he treats and loves me it feels that i do not want anybody else in my life. But how? Ermmm...

He makes me love and miss him everyday. He makes me smile every time i think about him. Baby... i love him dear, more than you know.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


Morning blues...

I do not know how to start writing this time.

Loosing and replacing...

But, does everything can be replaced?

Life is FRAGILE. It can be fine right now but worse a few second later. If we are understand this concept we will more appreciate what we have now. I always remind myself to appreciate what i have now, cause sometimes i know i am to demand. But i learn to focus what i have now and at the same time working hard to get what i want.

I am happy and feel glad for having him in my life now. Sorry, i do not have the answer why i still stay with you while we both know what obstacles in front us. The only answer that i can give to you is because of U... You do not know what have you done.

i LOVE u b... with all my heart. Thank you so much because you willingly care of me while i am sick. Thanks a lot for cooked nasi goreng dabai for me and bring me to eat bubur ayam nyum nyum hihi. I love u b. So much... and please do not ask me the same question again. Cause my answer will always be the same. It is because of U...

you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
boy don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby