After one year

2010

I got bad experienced about love this year. But it totally thought me what love is actually. But then suddenly at last month in this year, after more than one year i am officially in a relationship. i felt glad for that.

Here goes for baby...

Baby, i do not know whether this is too soon to tell you this. But this is what i felt.

i know sometimes i made stupid mistake while i'm with you, sometimes i made you felt disappointed, sometimes i know it is hard for you to handle me but above all i LOVE you so much dear, with all the laugh and tears that we had, with all the stupid jokes that we did, with all the sincere smiles that we shared, with the worried feeling of loosing "us". i never know what i have been missing while i met you. thanks for bring it back to me.

I do not want to think much about what we gonna face in future but i really really really appreciate the LOVE that we had now.

-efa-

Serious matter

May be this is the first time we talk seriously about obstacles in front of us.

That is really really really BIG matter.

Yesterday, for the first time we talk about obstacle that we had now. We can not do anything to change it now. Apparently both of us know what are the problems. We need time. Need time to make a decision. Decision to go to the next stage in our relation.

Look WORLD! i'm proud to have him in my life. It is not because he is my steady boyfriend right now, but he is the one who willingly care about me, he is the person make me love him more and more everyday, he makes me fall in love with him everyday, he makes me feel secure while i am with him, he does not care hold me in front public, he shows to people that he has me in his life. He makes me feel, that i was belonging to someone. And i love that feeling. He is my best-friend. He is my LOVER.

Should i think about it or not?

LOVE... 

No matter how small it is, all of us can feel it. There is no person who is emotionless, it just an act from getting hurt. That is what Along said to me before. She is my best friend since secondary school. When i read other people blog today, then i realized that most of their blog said about love & relationship. Hrmm well the same thing goes to me.

YES, i am in a good relationship now. I have a good boyfie, he cares about me, loves me, concern bout me, but no one knows that we have to handle BIG thing together. Cause we're totally different in religion. That is the big problem within us. We know that we LOVE each other, we know that we want to live together, we know we like to put "US" than we, we know that we're missing each other when we're far from each other, we know that we can compromise with each other, we know that we had a lot and lots of common things to share, we have a STRONG reason why we can be together but undeniably we also have a BIG problem to solve before we can be together. 

Can we make it? Dear Allah, i don't know what should i do. i AM worried, YES i am, but seems i don not care about it. But the fact is i just running from the real situation. It is not i do not want to think about it, but i just worried that the fact will hurt us deeply, i am worried when i realize the fact i will hurt more than i feel before.

Dear Allah, should i think about it or not? How can i solve it?

Dancing under the stars

We're officially in relationship. 

I make a move. Don't look back too long in what you have been through before and don't look too much in your future. Appreciate what you have now. That is important.

When he said "You have got me baby, you got my heart" seriously that time i feel this world is belong to me. Yes, i don't say anything. It just i can't. All i can do was smiling. I want to tell the world "Hey look! He is my boyfriend! The person who cares of me, the person who concern about me all the time."

We were danced under the stars last night. It was so awesome.  And feel happy when i am with him. We laughing all the time, we share stupid jokes and also the warm beats of our heart.

Perempuan

"Ketika Aku menciptakan seorang wanita, ia diharuskan untuk menjadi seorang yang istimewa. Aku membuat bahunya cukup kuat untuk menopang dunia; namun, harus cukup lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan".

"Aku memberikannya kekuatan dari dalam untuk mampu melahirkan anak dan menerima penolakan yang seringkali datang dari anak-anaknya."

"Aku memberinya kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar ketika orang-orang lain menyerah, dan mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan dan kelelahan tanpa mengeluh."

"Aku memberinya kepekaan untuk mencintai anak- anaknya dalam setiap keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya."

"Aku memberinya kekuatan untuk mendukung suaminya dalam kegagalannya dan melengkapi dengan tulang rusuk suaminya untuk melindungi hatinya."

"Aku memberinya kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui bahwa seorang suami yang baik takkan pernah menyakiti isterinya, tetapi kadang menguji kekuatannya dan ketetapan hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya tanpa ragu."

"Dan akhirnya, Aku memberinya air mata untuk dititiskan. Ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk digunakan bilapun ia perlukan."

"Kecantikan seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian yang dikenakannya, susuk yang ia tampilkan, atau bagaimana ia menyisir rambutnya.Kecantikan seorang wanita harus dilihat dari matanya, kerana itulah pintu hatinya, tempat dimana cinta itu ada."

Berlari

bok lekak habis nangga ceria SEPI, err 7/10... a love story p cara penyampaian dlm cerita ya best!

ada lah cgek scene dlm cerita tok, Sufi yang telah kematian isteri tok nang mala jak berlari sik berhenti2. So bila nya sampei kat taman tok, nya jumpa Marya [Siti Eja] then eja nanyak nya. Pahal nya mala jak berlari sampei kasut nya bisak2 semua.

"awak nie berlari meninggalkan sesuatu atau lari kepada sesuatu?"

Mungkin memang dah lumrah nya, kebanyakkan dari kita akan berlari meninggalkan seuatu, jarang untuk kita berlari kepada sesuatu. Manusia. Bila dah rasa sakit mulalah langkah demi langkah di hayun untuk meninggalkan nya. The same thing goes to me. Aku lari sik tauk nak pg cne dengan harapan aku dapat lari dari kesakitan ya. Tapi sejauh nie mampu untuk berlari? Kesakitan tetap terasa jika sik berani nak berhadapan dengan nya. Kita sik kan mampu nak mengubah apa yang dah tertulis. Tapi kita mampu mengubah keadaan yang sedang kita hadapi.

Melepaskan bukan bererti kehilangan.


Kejarlah jika sesuatu itu mempu memberikan manfaat kepada kita, walau macam mana sekalipun payah nya. Percayalah pada takdir. Percaya bahawa tiap sesuatu itu sudah pun d tetapkan. Jika ia telah berlaku maka tiada siapa pun mampu mengubah nya.

Kenak dlm berjuta-juta org dlm dunia tok, akhirnya kita jumpa org ya? Kenak sik org lain? kenak mesti jumpa pak abu? tapi bukan pak ali? Pertemuan semua nya dah pun di tetapkan. Tapi kita yang berhak memutuskan siapa yang patut untuk terus berada d hati kita. 


Kenak mesti berjumpa, andai perlu mengatakan selamat tinggal?